Ari*zona's Fos*sil Cre*ek... this picture was taken in November 2007 with my camera phone during the re*patria*tion of en*dangered na*tive fi*shies to this re*stored stream. A day I'll never forget!
Tuesday, April 22, 2008
Happy Earth Day!
Ari*zona's Fos*sil Cre*ek... this picture was taken in November 2007 with my camera phone during the re*patria*tion of en*dangered na*tive fi*shies to this re*stored stream. A day I'll never forget!
Wednesday, April 09, 2008
Two and two, bottom of the 5th
Two strikes...
First, Re: adoption - I found out today that the psychologist for the little girl has recommended that the girl and her foster mom participate in 4 to 6 months of family therapy. I agree that all should be done to preserve the bond they've established, unless the foster mom just isn't committed. So I'm back in the active pool of potential adoptive parents. And grieving the loss of another little kiddo that won't be mine.
Second, Re: guy that gave me his number last week - I called him. And we talked over the course of a couple days. I started to feel kind of excited about him. We made plans. But the more we talked, the more I could tell it wasn't going to work for me. He was very aggressive. And manipulative. Believe it or not, I could pretty well figure out that dating him would be a miserable experience. So we canceled our plans and wished each other well. That was yesterday...
So at this point, I'm going to bed early. It was a rough couple of days. But I'll catch up with my blogger buddies first. And see if I can't check the lottery #s drawn today. SOMETHING good has to happen, right?
First, Re: adoption - I found out today that the psychologist for the little girl has recommended that the girl and her foster mom participate in 4 to 6 months of family therapy. I agree that all should be done to preserve the bond they've established, unless the foster mom just isn't committed. So I'm back in the active pool of potential adoptive parents. And grieving the loss of another little kiddo that won't be mine.
Second, Re: guy that gave me his number last week - I called him. And we talked over the course of a couple days. I started to feel kind of excited about him. We made plans. But the more we talked, the more I could tell it wasn't going to work for me. He was very aggressive. And manipulative. Believe it or not, I could pretty well figure out that dating him would be a miserable experience. So we canceled our plans and wished each other well. That was yesterday...
So at this point, I'm going to bed early. It was a rough couple of days. But I'll catch up with my blogger buddies first. And see if I can't check the lottery #s drawn today. SOMETHING good has to happen, right?
Saturday, April 05, 2008
this, that and the other update
The wait is grueling!
The little girl I may be adopting was the subject of a hearing last Thursday wherein the judge did not make any decision about her placement, at least in part because the psych-eval she was suppose to undergo did not happen prior to the hearing. It's scheduled instead for next Tuesday. Then, apparently, it takes a couple weeks for the eval to make its way to the judge. The judge may then decide... or he may schedule another hearing... or the caseworker may have to petition for removal of the child from her current placement... or ?
So I'm probably looking at another month. When I was told initially that I'd know last Thursday. Okay, at least I know I'm not alone. The wait and changes and delays are pretty normal.
Otherwise, things are okay. Except that I can't schedule anything because I don't know what's going on... I've had to family members, an aunt and a grandfather, pass away in the last two months. A family gathering is planned in honor of my aunt during Memorial weekend. The family gathering in honor of Granddad is scheduled for the first week in August. Both are in the NW around Bend. I need to buy plane tickets for two separate trips, except that I don't know if I'll have a child and whether or not that child can travel with me out of state... I obviously need to spend some time talking to my adoption worker to clarify my options and whether or not I, as an adoptive parent, qualify for respite care if it's too early or unaffordable for two airline tickets for what will be at least 3 trips to the NW this year - because we have to go at Christmas (if there is a "we," of course).
And what I sorta rambled over was the fact that two of my family members died this year... Aunt Jo was in poor health for awhile, but too young. Only 6 years older than my mother who is 65. But my aunt did not trust doctors or people in general, so did not get preventive care or address what was likely stomach cancer. She had been a wonderfully sweet woman as I was growing up. At some points she was a stay-at-home mom, unlike my own, and I loved going to stay with her and my two cousins in the summer. She gave me the attention I craved. But she was also a bit mentally unstable. Which came to a head by the time I and my cousins were in high school, shortly before her husband left her. The rest of her life - the last 20-some years - had been pretty miserable. I'm certain the peace she now has is a blessing.
My granddad was sufficiently old (is there such a thing?) - about 92. He fell and broke his hip. Then they found a blood clot in his lungs. They decided not to do surgery, and it was a matter of a couple days before he passed away. My folks were able to see him, comfort him, and tell him that we all loved him. I really wanted to fly up, but the expense... and we really didn't know if he'd be gone within hours or days. He was pretty incoherent after the first 24 hours. I take comfort that I did visit him and my aunt at Christmas, as well as my last surviving grandparent - Grandma Starr - who is 98! She has pretty severe dementia and broke her hip just before that as well - though they did succeed at surgery, she's pretty difficult to rehab. She's the energizer bunny, the dear. But I miss her - how she was. How very much she loved me. Which was loads and loads... I'm so lucky! Now, though, she barely remembers me most of the time.
Would you believe that I have not run a single time since I ran the marathon? Not even at the gym. I use the elliptical trainer, lift weights. But am gaining weight because I eat like I did when I was running 30-50 miles/week. And I didn't go to the gym all last week... My workout buddy and bff is "recovering" from a tattoo and was told not to work out for a week. And cuz I just can't get myself there on my own... I should go today. a-hem...
And I got asked out last week by a random guy at the supermarket! I haven't called him yet, but I may. He seemed cool enough. Maybe later. Or tomorrow. I bet he thinks I'll never call since he gave me his # last Wednesday. :) I jus' don't wanna upset my little apple cart. I'm completely fine alone. But I guess we could meet for coffee...
The little girl I may be adopting was the subject of a hearing last Thursday wherein the judge did not make any decision about her placement, at least in part because the psych-eval she was suppose to undergo did not happen prior to the hearing. It's scheduled instead for next Tuesday. Then, apparently, it takes a couple weeks for the eval to make its way to the judge. The judge may then decide... or he may schedule another hearing... or the caseworker may have to petition for removal of the child from her current placement... or ?
So I'm probably looking at another month. When I was told initially that I'd know last Thursday. Okay, at least I know I'm not alone. The wait and changes and delays are pretty normal.
Otherwise, things are okay. Except that I can't schedule anything because I don't know what's going on... I've had to family members, an aunt and a grandfather, pass away in the last two months. A family gathering is planned in honor of my aunt during Memorial weekend. The family gathering in honor of Granddad is scheduled for the first week in August. Both are in the NW around Bend. I need to buy plane tickets for two separate trips, except that I don't know if I'll have a child and whether or not that child can travel with me out of state... I obviously need to spend some time talking to my adoption worker to clarify my options and whether or not I, as an adoptive parent, qualify for respite care if it's too early or unaffordable for two airline tickets for what will be at least 3 trips to the NW this year - because we have to go at Christmas (if there is a "we," of course).
And what I sorta rambled over was the fact that two of my family members died this year... Aunt Jo was in poor health for awhile, but too young. Only 6 years older than my mother who is 65. But my aunt did not trust doctors or people in general, so did not get preventive care or address what was likely stomach cancer. She had been a wonderfully sweet woman as I was growing up. At some points she was a stay-at-home mom, unlike my own, and I loved going to stay with her and my two cousins in the summer. She gave me the attention I craved. But she was also a bit mentally unstable. Which came to a head by the time I and my cousins were in high school, shortly before her husband left her. The rest of her life - the last 20-some years - had been pretty miserable. I'm certain the peace she now has is a blessing.
My granddad was sufficiently old (is there such a thing?) - about 92. He fell and broke his hip. Then they found a blood clot in his lungs. They decided not to do surgery, and it was a matter of a couple days before he passed away. My folks were able to see him, comfort him, and tell him that we all loved him. I really wanted to fly up, but the expense... and we really didn't know if he'd be gone within hours or days. He was pretty incoherent after the first 24 hours. I take comfort that I did visit him and my aunt at Christmas, as well as my last surviving grandparent - Grandma Starr - who is 98! She has pretty severe dementia and broke her hip just before that as well - though they did succeed at surgery, she's pretty difficult to rehab. She's the energizer bunny, the dear. But I miss her - how she was. How very much she loved me. Which was loads and loads... I'm so lucky! Now, though, she barely remembers me most of the time.
Would you believe that I have not run a single time since I ran the marathon? Not even at the gym. I use the elliptical trainer, lift weights. But am gaining weight because I eat like I did when I was running 30-50 miles/week. And I didn't go to the gym all last week... My workout buddy and bff is "recovering" from a tattoo and was told not to work out for a week. And cuz I just can't get myself there on my own... I should go today. a-hem...
And I got asked out last week by a random guy at the supermarket! I haven't called him yet, but I may. He seemed cool enough. Maybe later. Or tomorrow. I bet he thinks I'll never call since he gave me his # last Wednesday. :) I jus' don't wanna upset my little apple cart. I'm completely fine alone. But I guess we could meet for coffee...
Wednesday, March 19, 2008
Ready for your close-up, Girls?
Found myself playing instead of working this afternoon/evening... and here's what I did. Made my first movie! This is video I took with my digital camera last summer of my two darling nieces attempting yoga. Of course the older - 9 at the time - is slightly better at following instructions/copying than the 2 year old, but not by much. Added a silly song and some effects... voila! Video. Enjoy :)
Sunday, March 16, 2008
Manic Sunday
I was SO SICK last week!! I came down with (probably) the dreaded nasty norovirus and began the pukefest Monday night. I was still sick, although the puking stopped, Tuesday through Thursday. I finally felt somewhat slightly normal on Friday, although ti-reD with a capital D. I took Tuesday and Wednesday off from work. I couldn't do anything, but started catching up as much as I could on Thursday. I work from home most of the time, so it's a pretty easy deal that way. I don't have to shower to work...
But I'm back and in fine shape nows. Thank goodness! And I've been in rare form for a few days now. I can't seem to not say what's on my mind. For example, I went with my friend to a tattoo shop yesterday afternoon so she could finally talk to them about getting her first tattoo. While chatting with the shop-keep, he decided to show us his "realistic" joke tattoo - an "open wound" on his ankle. I told him it looked like an asshole. He laughed. A lot. Then said that that was actually the model or original concept that was morphed into the wound. He also said that in all this time, I was the only person to ever say that/guess that right. But c'mon, I don't know this guy and here I tell him his tattoo looks like an asshole?
I had such a fun day yesterday with my friend. We went to breakfast, then Sally Beauty for makeup and hair color and, and, and... then Walgreen's for more stuff, then to R's for a break. While she walked her dog, I applied some of my new makeup for funs. When she got back, we went to look for the new tattoo studio in the neighborhood that's owned by a woman who did a friend of R's gorgeous floral tattoos. Told you about that trip already. Oh, but just before that we stopped at a Mexican bakery and had pastries and coffee. So cheap and yummy!
R & I took a little break and went to our own homes to "do stuff." I went back over with Kobi to eat dinner and play scrabble, but we never got to the scrabble. We played with makeup at the kitchen table. She looked like some gorgeous vamp from Star Trek! I didn't go that crazy... just looked like I was ready for (somebody's) bed.
Today's been a little more mellow. I guess I wore myself out yesterday because I slept until almost 11:30 this morning! Makes for a short day...
I am getting very excited about the prospects of having a pre-teen girl. Scared as hell, too. But, we'll just have to see what happens. I still won't know anything until the 3rd of April. I have really noticed, though, that maybe out of self-preservation or just my knack for making the best of things, I find myself thinking: "What was I thinking wanting two little boys... that would have been crazy! Costco here I come. I'd be worn ragged. And those fun little trips to Sally Beauty? The boys wouldn't really enjoy that. A little girl would have a blast with the make up parties, scrabble, trips to L.A., etc., etc. I would be so pinned down with younger children, and more limited on 'fun' with boys..." Now I know that's not all true. I do know. But I'm making this all okay for myself to become a mother suddenly of a pre-teen when I originally started this to have a baby of my own. Strange twists and turns, but thankfully, honestly, I was very open to whatever. As long as I get to be a mom, have a family.
Here's pics of my current family. Enjoy!
But I'm back and in fine shape nows. Thank goodness! And I've been in rare form for a few days now. I can't seem to not say what's on my mind. For example, I went with my friend to a tattoo shop yesterday afternoon so she could finally talk to them about getting her first tattoo. While chatting with the shop-keep, he decided to show us his "realistic" joke tattoo - an "open wound" on his ankle. I told him it looked like an asshole. He laughed. A lot. Then said that that was actually the model or original concept that was morphed into the wound. He also said that in all this time, I was the only person to ever say that/guess that right. But c'mon, I don't know this guy and here I tell him his tattoo looks like an asshole?
I had such a fun day yesterday with my friend. We went to breakfast, then Sally Beauty for makeup and hair color and, and, and... then Walgreen's for more stuff, then to R's for a break. While she walked her dog, I applied some of my new makeup for funs. When she got back, we went to look for the new tattoo studio in the neighborhood that's owned by a woman who did a friend of R's gorgeous floral tattoos. Told you about that trip already. Oh, but just before that we stopped at a Mexican bakery and had pastries and coffee. So cheap and yummy!
R & I took a little break and went to our own homes to "do stuff." I went back over with Kobi to eat dinner and play scrabble, but we never got to the scrabble. We played with makeup at the kitchen table. She looked like some gorgeous vamp from Star Trek! I didn't go that crazy... just looked like I was ready for (somebody's) bed.
Today's been a little more mellow. I guess I wore myself out yesterday because I slept until almost 11:30 this morning! Makes for a short day...
I am getting very excited about the prospects of having a pre-teen girl. Scared as hell, too. But, we'll just have to see what happens. I still won't know anything until the 3rd of April. I have really noticed, though, that maybe out of self-preservation or just my knack for making the best of things, I find myself thinking: "What was I thinking wanting two little boys... that would have been crazy! Costco here I come. I'd be worn ragged. And those fun little trips to Sally Beauty? The boys wouldn't really enjoy that. A little girl would have a blast with the make up parties, scrabble, trips to L.A., etc., etc. I would be so pinned down with younger children, and more limited on 'fun' with boys..." Now I know that's not all true. I do know. But I'm making this all okay for myself to become a mother suddenly of a pre-teen when I originally started this to have a baby of my own. Strange twists and turns, but thankfully, honestly, I was very open to whatever. As long as I get to be a mom, have a family.
Here's pics of my current family. Enjoy!
Wednesday, March 05, 2008
New Poop
I go hot pink tomorrow, Candace & Marcy. :) I scheduled a trim and pink tendrils. To go with my hot bubble-gum pink toenails. Yay! And here's why...
I gave an official "yes" to CPS and my agency that I am interested in the 11-year-old girl! And/BUT there's a court hearing early next month where a judge will determine whether or not she will be moved from her current placement. The workers want her moved, feeling that the current foster mom isn't doing all she should for the girl - such as getting her to counseling appointments. The lady has also gone back and forth on whether or not she wants to adopt the girl. So it's time to move her. But the judge could decide that she's moved enough already (7 placements since she went into care in 2004!). Although the workers think that if she's not moved now it's just delaying the inevitable.
So it'll be another month before I know whether or not I'm going to be mothering a pre-teen girl. And if the answer is yes, will the current foster mom work with us on a good transition, or will she just say "fine, just take her now," which wouldn't probably be in the child's best interest. So there's a lot I still dunno and won't know for awhile. ...but WOW! I will know in a few weeks. And we all know how both quickly and slowly a month can pass...
So that's my scoop! I suppose I will be changing the name of my blog soon... Maybe I'll hold a naming contest!! I do think that I'll want to adopt a second kiddo in the next 2-3 years, after my first has time to fully adjust. So exciting!!
I gave an official "yes" to CPS and my agency that I am interested in the 11-year-old girl! And/BUT there's a court hearing early next month where a judge will determine whether or not she will be moved from her current placement. The workers want her moved, feeling that the current foster mom isn't doing all she should for the girl - such as getting her to counseling appointments. The lady has also gone back and forth on whether or not she wants to adopt the girl. So it's time to move her. But the judge could decide that she's moved enough already (7 placements since she went into care in 2004!). Although the workers think that if she's not moved now it's just delaying the inevitable.
So it'll be another month before I know whether or not I'm going to be mothering a pre-teen girl. And if the answer is yes, will the current foster mom work with us on a good transition, or will she just say "fine, just take her now," which wouldn't probably be in the child's best interest. So there's a lot I still dunno and won't know for awhile. ...but WOW! I will know in a few weeks. And we all know how both quickly and slowly a month can pass...
So that's my scoop! I suppose I will be changing the name of my blog soon... Maybe I'll hold a naming contest!! I do think that I'll want to adopt a second kiddo in the next 2-3 years, after my first has time to fully adjust. So exciting!!
Wednesday, February 20, 2008
Goodnight, Moon
Woo! Where have I been? Around. Working mostly. A little down. A little up. It's all going okay, though. Really.
Had a quarterly visit from my adoption specialist today. It went fine, and forced me to do a little extra house cleaning. She told me about an 11-year-old girl that may need a new placement soon. Sounded like a good possibility, and she sounds like a good kid. I told her I'd consider it. Hopefully I'll hear in a couple weeks. And for whatever reason, there are just not a lot of kids free and clear for adoption getting presented by Child Protective Services lately. I want to complain -- maybe even threaten to find a new agency... Maybe what I should do is find some other adoptive hopeful families and compare notes.
It's been a stormy night with rain, lightning and thunder - and even a couple of brief power outages. Kobi-dog hates storms. He sat with his head under my thigh through most of it. Poor guy. It's quieted down now, and so has he. Unfortunately, the clouds were heavy during the majority of the lunar eclipse, so essentially missed that. Oh, well. Next one is December 2010! Something "else" to look forward to.
Thinking I'll change my green tendrils for hot pink soon. Or maybe blue. But probably pink... Votes?
Had a quarterly visit from my adoption specialist today. It went fine, and forced me to do a little extra house cleaning. She told me about an 11-year-old girl that may need a new placement soon. Sounded like a good possibility, and she sounds like a good kid. I told her I'd consider it. Hopefully I'll hear in a couple weeks. And for whatever reason, there are just not a lot of kids free and clear for adoption getting presented by Child Protective Services lately. I want to complain -- maybe even threaten to find a new agency... Maybe what I should do is find some other adoptive hopeful families and compare notes.
It's been a stormy night with rain, lightning and thunder - and even a couple of brief power outages. Kobi-dog hates storms. He sat with his head under my thigh through most of it. Poor guy. It's quieted down now, and so has he. Unfortunately, the clouds were heavy during the majority of the lunar eclipse, so essentially missed that. Oh, well. Next one is December 2010! Something "else" to look forward to.
Thinking I'll change my green tendrils for hot pink soon. Or maybe blue. But probably pink... Votes?
Thursday, February 07, 2008
New do
I got my hair cut a couple nights ago. I'd decided I wanted something COMPLETELY different. Last Friday night I walked into a salon and looked at their hair magazines. Picked something and said, "can you do this? do you think it will look good on me??" Both confirmed, I made the appointment. I tried to get her to cut it shorter in the back, but she didn't want it to look like a wedge. So it ended up like this:
and it was cute (the long front tendrils are GREEN! can you tell?), but I thought the back was too long. It looked a little boxy, so I went back in today...
and I like it a lot better!!
Still green tendrils. But a little more sporty and dramatic.
I plan on blaming a mid-life crisis...
and it was cute (the long front tendrils are GREEN! can you tell?), but I thought the back was too long. It looked a little boxy, so I went back in today...
and I like it a lot better!!
Still green tendrils. But a little more sporty and dramatic.
I plan on blaming a mid-life crisis...
Monday, February 04, 2008
Cuteness wins!
I have got THE CUTEST NIECES EVER!! Check out these pixies...
M*m*, 2.75 years
L*x*, 10.2 years
And I just love 'em to pieces!!!
And because I just gotta keep relivin' the moment... me at the finish line of the marathon. Slow but happy!
M*m*, 2.75 years
L*x*, 10.2 years
And I just love 'em to pieces!!!
And because I just gotta keep relivin' the moment... me at the finish line of the marathon. Slow but happy!
Monday, January 21, 2008
Juno it's about time.... UPDATED
I'm still basking in the glow of my success and running prowess.... Heh! Except for the sometimes excruciating pain in my left foot. I hope I didn't fracture a bone. I have incredibly flat feet (they make suction cup farty noises if I walk barefoot across a damp hard surface), and wear arch supports in my athletic shoes. Not ideal for running long distances. If the pain keeps up, I'll go in for an x-ray or check with my podiatrist.
Last Saturday I got a call from the two little boys' court-appointed advocate. He wanted to check in with me, ask me some questions, and let me know that the "team" will be deciding on a permanent home for the boys on Tuesday (tomorrow!). These are the two little boys ages 3 and 4 who were meth babies. I am one of 8 families being considered. And one of the families is the foster mother (or foster parents, not sure). I want to take it as a really good sign that I was notified about the boys on my birthday, and that his call happened the same day I went and saw the movie "Juno"--I went to the early show and got his call in the afternoon. "Juno," if you haven't heard about it or seen it, is about a teenage girl who gets pregnant, decides to have the baby and picks a couple to adopt the child. The fact that it's smart and sassy and has some terrific lines, albeit somewhat over the top and unlikely, is beside the point. SPOILER ALERT! STOP NOW - SKIP TO NEXT PARAGRAPH! The fact that she picks a couple that later breaks up and she still chooses the wife to be a single mother to her baby is where the rubber meets the road in my connecting the call to the movie.
Needless to say, I'm obsessing about the boys, whether or not it will be a good match, whether or not I'll even be chosen, how likely or not is it that I'll be chosen given the odds, what does it mean that he called me, and when he asked if the case worker or anyone else had called me yet and they hadn't, does that mean the others aren't considering me? Okay, yeah. Since I'd prefer not to be disappointed, I think I'll go with: "It's unlikely that I will be chosen, but I'm glad I've been considered... I have to trust that the caseworker, child advocate, and whoever else is making the decision are best positioned to choose a good match. I will be happy for the boys whatever the outcome. A good match will happen for me eventually."
I should know by Wednesday. And you'll be the 4th to know once I hear. (First being my mom, 2nd sister, and 3rd R...)
TUESDAY NIGHT UPDATE: I still don't know, but I'm assuming it's a no go for me. I found the kiddos foster mom's website - just a little google action and what do you know!? The family has 7 kids, and the two little ones have a biological baby sister. Sheesh... I'd hate to break them up. I think the foster family probably got them, but I should know that for certain tomorrow. ALSO found out that the younger of the two is a GIRL! not a boy. She's absolutely beautiful - they both are. Little blond darlings. Anywho. I will post again when I know for sure, for sure.
WEDNESDAY MORNING UPDATE: I was not chosen. ...maybe next time... This is a very frustrating process. From now on, if the foster family are in the mix of families "vying" for a child or children, I'm going to just assume they will likely get the placement. And I will need to further consider becoming a foster-to-adopt parent. Basically I just need to shell out some money for home repairs to the home I rent (yes, unfair) so it would pass inspection for a foster care license. Alright. I'm running late... Thanks all for your well wishes!
Last Saturday I got a call from the two little boys' court-appointed advocate. He wanted to check in with me, ask me some questions, and let me know that the "team" will be deciding on a permanent home for the boys on Tuesday (tomorrow!). These are the two little boys ages 3 and 4 who were meth babies. I am one of 8 families being considered. And one of the families is the foster mother (or foster parents, not sure). I want to take it as a really good sign that I was notified about the boys on my birthday, and that his call happened the same day I went and saw the movie "Juno"--I went to the early show and got his call in the afternoon. "Juno," if you haven't heard about it or seen it, is about a teenage girl who gets pregnant, decides to have the baby and picks a couple to adopt the child. The fact that it's smart and sassy and has some terrific lines, albeit somewhat over the top and unlikely, is beside the point. SPOILER ALERT! STOP NOW - SKIP TO NEXT PARAGRAPH! The fact that she picks a couple that later breaks up and she still chooses the wife to be a single mother to her baby is where the rubber meets the road in my connecting the call to the movie.
Needless to say, I'm obsessing about the boys, whether or not it will be a good match, whether or not I'll even be chosen, how likely or not is it that I'll be chosen given the odds, what does it mean that he called me, and when he asked if the case worker or anyone else had called me yet and they hadn't, does that mean the others aren't considering me? Okay, yeah. Since I'd prefer not to be disappointed, I think I'll go with: "It's unlikely that I will be chosen, but I'm glad I've been considered... I have to trust that the caseworker, child advocate, and whoever else is making the decision are best positioned to choose a good match. I will be happy for the boys whatever the outcome. A good match will happen for me eventually."
I should know by Wednesday. And you'll be the 4th to know once I hear. (First being my mom, 2nd sister, and 3rd R...)
TUESDAY NIGHT UPDATE: I still don't know, but I'm assuming it's a no go for me. I found the kiddos foster mom's website - just a little google action and what do you know!? The family has 7 kids, and the two little ones have a biological baby sister. Sheesh... I'd hate to break them up. I think the foster family probably got them, but I should know that for certain tomorrow. ALSO found out that the younger of the two is a GIRL! not a boy. She's absolutely beautiful - they both are. Little blond darlings. Anywho. I will post again when I know for sure, for sure.
WEDNESDAY MORNING UPDATE: I was not chosen. ...maybe next time... This is a very frustrating process. From now on, if the foster family are in the mix of families "vying" for a child or children, I'm going to just assume they will likely get the placement. And I will need to further consider becoming a foster-to-adopt parent. Basically I just need to shell out some money for home repairs to the home I rent (yes, unfair) so it would pass inspection for a foster care license. Alright. I'm running late... Thanks all for your well wishes!
Monday, January 14, 2008
Sunday, January 06, 2008
Butt slings and birthday parties
The timing must mean something, right? At least I hope so...
Last Friday was my birthday - #44!! - and my adoption worker called me. It's been weeks since I'd heard anything from her. She told me about a pair of young brothers - 3 and 4 - that were legally free and ready for adoption! She wanted to know if she should forward my homestudy to their caseworker... DUH! Yes, please!!
They are not problem free, though. Meth babies. And the older will have permanent handicaps due, most likely, to the drugs. The younger is bright and on track developmentally. I will need a lot more information before I make a final decision - that is if I even get that opportunity. We'll see what the caseworker says. But I'm very excited that SOMETHING has happened. I'm so ready!
My birthday was great. Had a lovely dinner and dessert with friends and went to an art opening for one of them. I still need to put air in my new bike's tires so I can enjoy the "gift" from my folks. Funny thing - I only got two birthday cards and they were both from friends I had dinner with. I did get the requisite phone calls from my sister and her girls singing Happy Birthday - it was SO CUTE!! I could totally pick out each of their voices, and the 2.5-year-old was singing with mucho gusto! Also singing calls from my best friend and my mom. It was a really good day.
Since then, my best friend and I have been going to the gym on a freebie week long membership. It's been a blast. This helps me keep up with the gains I made working out for two weeks in Seattle courtesy of my sister. Let's hear it for cardio equipment and weight machines... YAY!! I'm SUPPOSE to run a marathon this next Sunday. Not sure... my "ass" gave out at 10 miles today. I have some very tight tendons and muscles that have been aggravated for more than a month. I'm going to make a concerted effort to stretch this week. Will be interesting. I'm a little afraid I either won't finish or won't finish in time (which is the same thing, because they'll pick you up and shuttle you if you're not done in time...). But I will give it a shot. Wish me luck!!
Last Friday was my birthday - #44!! - and my adoption worker called me. It's been weeks since I'd heard anything from her. She told me about a pair of young brothers - 3 and 4 - that were legally free and ready for adoption! She wanted to know if she should forward my homestudy to their caseworker... DUH! Yes, please!!
They are not problem free, though. Meth babies. And the older will have permanent handicaps due, most likely, to the drugs. The younger is bright and on track developmentally. I will need a lot more information before I make a final decision - that is if I even get that opportunity. We'll see what the caseworker says. But I'm very excited that SOMETHING has happened. I'm so ready!
My birthday was great. Had a lovely dinner and dessert with friends and went to an art opening for one of them. I still need to put air in my new bike's tires so I can enjoy the "gift" from my folks. Funny thing - I only got two birthday cards and they were both from friends I had dinner with. I did get the requisite phone calls from my sister and her girls singing Happy Birthday - it was SO CUTE!! I could totally pick out each of their voices, and the 2.5-year-old was singing with mucho gusto! Also singing calls from my best friend and my mom. It was a really good day.
Since then, my best friend and I have been going to the gym on a freebie week long membership. It's been a blast. This helps me keep up with the gains I made working out for two weeks in Seattle courtesy of my sister. Let's hear it for cardio equipment and weight machines... YAY!! I'm SUPPOSE to run a marathon this next Sunday. Not sure... my "ass" gave out at 10 miles today. I have some very tight tendons and muscles that have been aggravated for more than a month. I'm going to make a concerted effort to stretch this week. Will be interesting. I'm a little afraid I either won't finish or won't finish in time (which is the same thing, because they'll pick you up and shuttle you if you're not done in time...). But I will give it a shot. Wish me luck!!
Wednesday, January 02, 2008
Tra-la-la
Oh, my goodness gracious!! I can't believe it's been more than a month since I posted and two weeks since I checked my dear friends' blogs! There's lots of happiness to ring in the New Year with (Marcy, Tracey, RaJen), and there are good times to come for the rest of us. I'm wishing ALL the brightest of futures and a wonderful year!!
I had a lovely Christmas break with family and friends. I stayed at my sister's north of Seattle with my two lovely nieces and parents. My sister bought me a two week pass to her gym, and I took full advantage of it. I also visited a couple friends in Portland, my grandparents in central Oregon, and my cousin and his partner in Seattle. I didn't work or check email for two full weeks! It was so fabulous... Of course now I'm trying to crack through 500 plus emails, but doing a decent job of it.
I have heard absolutely nothing about my adopting kiddos. I had been contacted about one little boy, but it wasn't a good fit. Nothing since. And none of my inquiries have panned out as of yet. But it's a new year, and good things are gonna happen!
Can't believe how boring I am. I'll make a resolution to be more interesting and funny... starting tomorrow.
I had a lovely Christmas break with family and friends. I stayed at my sister's north of Seattle with my two lovely nieces and parents. My sister bought me a two week pass to her gym, and I took full advantage of it. I also visited a couple friends in Portland, my grandparents in central Oregon, and my cousin and his partner in Seattle. I didn't work or check email for two full weeks! It was so fabulous... Of course now I'm trying to crack through 500 plus emails, but doing a decent job of it.
I have heard absolutely nothing about my adopting kiddos. I had been contacted about one little boy, but it wasn't a good fit. Nothing since. And none of my inquiries have panned out as of yet. But it's a new year, and good things are gonna happen!
Can't believe how boring I am. I'll make a resolution to be more interesting and funny... starting tomorrow.
Friday, November 30, 2007
Dis 'n Dat
oof! What a couple 'a weeks!! I've just felt absolutely exhausted. Not sure if it's because it's cooled down here or what. And it's pouring rain today - LOVELY! First rainy day we've had in months. My marathon training has been suffering from having taken a couple weeks off and never really getting back into it. A run here. A run there. I did 18 miles once in early October. Since then, nothing more than 10 miles, and that only once. I've got to really hit it for all of December! Even when I'm on vacation in the NW for the last two weeks of the month.
Have also decided that for at least ONE WEEK, I will go to bed at 9 (oops, already 9:45), get up at 5 (tomorrow's Saturday, so I'll sleep in until 6), run 4-5 days/week, and NOT go back to bed after my run. Yeah. I've been doing that a lot. Get up, run, take a nap. I think that's part of the reason I'm exhausted all the time. So I'm going to make a concerted effort to get 8 hours sleep and not nap after my runs.
I bought myself a bike for my birthday -- actually, I asked my parents if they would buy me a bike for my birthday, they said yes, so I ordered it and it came fedex today. (My b-day's not until January.) I put it together, but I need a couple of different tools. Like spanners. Until then, my seat will not be tight. Once I get it all finished, I'll post a pic. It's a sweet cruiser that looks just like this, except I added fenders!
Bad news this week on the Nut*risys*tem front... they decided to add fish paste to all of their lunches! Calling it Omega*Sol without the asterisk. Which means their otherwise meatfree vegetarian meal plan is no longer vegetarian. So, I'm going to send back all of my Omega-enhanced lunches and cancel my membership. Good news, I've lost 30 pounds. I still have 15 to go, but I should be fine. My diet was kick-started, and I can handle it from here.
I don't know anything else right now except it's almost 10 and I'm an hour late for bed... I really enjoyed spending this evening reading my friends' blogs and catching up on their lives. I'm keeping you all in my thoughts, even when I'm "absent."
Have also decided that for at least ONE WEEK, I will go to bed at 9 (oops, already 9:45), get up at 5 (tomorrow's Saturday, so I'll sleep in until 6), run 4-5 days/week, and NOT go back to bed after my run. Yeah. I've been doing that a lot. Get up, run, take a nap. I think that's part of the reason I'm exhausted all the time. So I'm going to make a concerted effort to get 8 hours sleep and not nap after my runs.
I bought myself a bike for my birthday -- actually, I asked my parents if they would buy me a bike for my birthday, they said yes, so I ordered it and it came fedex today. (My b-day's not until January.) I put it together, but I need a couple of different tools. Like spanners. Until then, my seat will not be tight. Once I get it all finished, I'll post a pic. It's a sweet cruiser that looks just like this, except I added fenders!
Bad news this week on the Nut*risys*tem front... they decided to add fish paste to all of their lunches! Calling it Omega*Sol without the asterisk. Which means their otherwise meatfree vegetarian meal plan is no longer vegetarian. So, I'm going to send back all of my Omega-enhanced lunches and cancel my membership. Good news, I've lost 30 pounds. I still have 15 to go, but I should be fine. My diet was kick-started, and I can handle it from here.
I don't know anything else right now except it's almost 10 and I'm an hour late for bed... I really enjoyed spending this evening reading my friends' blogs and catching up on their lives. I'm keeping you all in my thoughts, even when I'm "absent."
Wednesday, November 14, 2007
Glam
I'm back from Hollywood! My good friend R & I drove out Saturday morning and returned Monday. We took our dogs and made quite a weekend of it - although it was mostly devoted to the film festival. The event was pretty great. And I did get to meet Ted Danson! (my back is to the camera...)
I elicited a total "Sam Malone" moment from him when I told him about some f*ish r*estoration work I'd done recently (he narrated the film about the creek the f*ish went into). "Wow..." accompanied by a slight bend backwards. :)
Also found myself standing about two feet from Angelina Jolie's brother at one point... Didn't get the best picture of him (James Haven), but it's something (of course I didn't take a picture when I was right next to him).
And here's what I looked like -
Yep - did it up as best I could... And it really was a lot of fun.
Other, more important update - my grandma is doing okay after her hip surgery. She's been pretty out of it, but she should be able to start doing physical therapy in a week or so and will very hopefully be able to walk again.
I haven't heard any more about the brothers in Oregon, but the caseworker should have my home study by now!
I elicited a total "Sam Malone" moment from him when I told him about some f*ish r*estoration work I'd done recently (he narrated the film about the creek the f*ish went into). "Wow..." accompanied by a slight bend backwards. :)
Also found myself standing about two feet from Angelina Jolie's brother at one point... Didn't get the best picture of him (James Haven), but it's something (of course I didn't take a picture when I was right next to him).
And here's what I looked like -
Yep - did it up as best I could... And it really was a lot of fun.
Other, more important update - my grandma is doing okay after her hip surgery. She's been pretty out of it, but she should be able to start doing physical therapy in a week or so and will very hopefully be able to walk again.
I haven't heard any more about the brothers in Oregon, but the caseworker should have my home study by now!
Thursday, November 08, 2007
More jazz
What an up and down week I've had!! The bad news: my 98-year-old grandma fell and broke her hip 3 days after her birthday; my neighbor lady had a heart attack; and I had a really frantic, f*d up day on Tuesday (same day Grandma fell) that I've still barely recovered from. Good news: grandma's surgery went fine (once Mom went down and talked her into it); neighbor lady will be going through some additional testing, but hopes to be home tomorrow--it was a mild heart attack; I got to help reintroduce some end*angered f*ish last Friday into a special creek we've worked to restore; and on Saturday I am going to a Hollywood screening of a documentary about that same creek, participating in the Q&A panel following the screening and then attending a red carpet and awards event Sunday!! I had to shop for just the right accessories today (including sp*anx)... Here's to hoping it's wonderful!
On the kiddo front, I found a couple of troubled cuties in Oregon that might be a good match for me, so had my adoption worker send my home study yesterday. We'll see what their caseworker thinks. They're younger - 2-1/2 & 4-1/2. But they've been through hell and really need a permanent, stable, serene, loving home. Of course I'll keep y'all posted.
I haven't caught up on my dear blogger buddies' blogs yet. Hopefully I can do that soon!! In the meantime, ladies, hope you're taking good care of yourselves and gearing up for the holidays. (The clothing store I shopped at today was playing Christmas tunes. 'Tis the season...) *mwah!*
On the kiddo front, I found a couple of troubled cuties in Oregon that might be a good match for me, so had my adoption worker send my home study yesterday. We'll see what their caseworker thinks. They're younger - 2-1/2 & 4-1/2. But they've been through hell and really need a permanent, stable, serene, loving home. Of course I'll keep y'all posted.
I haven't caught up on my dear blogger buddies' blogs yet. Hopefully I can do that soon!! In the meantime, ladies, hope you're taking good care of yourselves and gearing up for the holidays. (The clothing store I shopped at today was playing Christmas tunes. 'Tis the season...) *mwah!*
Thursday, November 01, 2007
And all that jazz
Oh dearest goodness... I have so lapsed! Whatever it is, it's getting worse.
I had traveled - to D.C., then to a staff retreat. Followed by a week long visit from my momma. She left Saturday, and I missed her the moment I said goodbye. Moped around all weekend. Still moping, in fact!
While she was here, we went to Ikea and I bought bunkbeds for my yet to be identified little ones! Aren't they cute? A friend did ask, "and what if you need a crib?" Answer: My sister will send me hers. Problem solved. But I don't think it's very likely. I'll be surprised and happy if the kids are under 10. (Still hoping for two.)
I was in Super Target--I know! I refuse to go to Walmart of any size, but I'll go to Target? I'm such a hypocrit!-- yesterday and while I was familiarizing myself with the rows of Archer Farms offerings, saw a gal riding around on one of those electric chairs. I glanced and thought, she's not THAT old... Hmmm, what's up? She answered my silent question while rubbing her rounded belly, "They're really upset with me right now.... but only three weeks to go, if I can make it that far." "Twins? Congratulations!" I said, all the time focusing on her age--I think she's older than me! Well, something worked for her. And my congrats were sincere.
I'd better get back to work, but will try to catch up on my "reading" and blogging soon!!
I had traveled - to D.C., then to a staff retreat. Followed by a week long visit from my momma. She left Saturday, and I missed her the moment I said goodbye. Moped around all weekend. Still moping, in fact!
While she was here, we went to Ikea and I bought bunkbeds for my yet to be identified little ones! Aren't they cute? A friend did ask, "and what if you need a crib?" Answer: My sister will send me hers. Problem solved. But I don't think it's very likely. I'll be surprised and happy if the kids are under 10. (Still hoping for two.)
I was in Super Target--I know! I refuse to go to Walmart of any size, but I'll go to Target? I'm such a hypocrit!-- yesterday and while I was familiarizing myself with the rows of Archer Farms offerings, saw a gal riding around on one of those electric chairs. I glanced and thought, she's not THAT old... Hmmm, what's up? She answered my silent question while rubbing her rounded belly, "They're really upset with me right now.... but only three weeks to go, if I can make it that far." "Twins? Congratulations!" I said, all the time focusing on her age--I think she's older than me! Well, something worked for her. And my congrats were sincere.
I'd better get back to work, but will try to catch up on my "reading" and blogging soon!!
Thursday, October 18, 2007
Job Title Debacle
NOTE: Read "Grinder House" first, and then if you feel compelled to find out more details about the work stuff, continue...
Here's a doctored up version of the letter I emailed my bosses... It will explain a bit about the job title issue as well as the work hell I've been going through. Don't be distressed that the letter makes absolutely no sense since I've replaced organization and project names with blocks of letters--it didn't make any sense before I changed it.
Still holding your breath? Or did you give up??
I'm now the R*i*vers C*o*nservation M*a*nager...
Here's a doctored up version of the letter I emailed my bosses... It will explain a bit about the job title issue as well as the work hell I've been going through. Don't be distressed that the letter makes absolutely no sense since I've replaced organization and project names with blocks of letters--it didn't make any sense before I changed it.
This is about so much more than just a job title.
Bigger picture: no one has effectively communicated to me what their or the XXXX’s vision is for my position or the now apparently defunct YYYY Program.
First off, I want to make it clear that I truly value the work the XXXX does and am so very proud to be a part of it. I love my job. And I want to continue doing my job. But, I am unhappy with how things have evolved and how I have been left out of the discussion. And if you’ll bear with me, I need to lay this out so you can be clear as to why I’m feeling unhappy and undervalued.
A few years ago, the XXXX’s work was split into more manageable parts called “programs.” I was made YYYY Program Director. I wrote a program plan, but received little support or guidance. I had big ideas of what the YYYY Program might become over the next few years, particularly if I were to get some support and staff. I thought we would do more work to achieve ZZZZ designations throughout the west. And to change western w*a*ter policy. I hoped to achieve prioritization of restoring native f*i*sh, starting in Arizona, and then branching into other states. The SSPP Campaign and VVVV Campaign would be models for future r*i*ver or w*a*tershed campaigns. I wasn’t sure how to make all of this happen, particularly when I was still required to work part of the time as R’s assistant. But I figured that if I kept my head down and worked away at it, I’d eventually get some of that support, authority and growth that seemed promised with the job title. Over time, I did less work for R and became more exclusively YYYY Program focused.
But then the YYYY Program was “maybe” moved to PPPP Program around last year’s staff retreat after the DDDD and FFFF programs’ leadership bowed out. P was then head of the PPPP Program and led a small group meeting at the retreat. I wasn’t clear whether I was in PPPP Program, and P didn’t know either. M assured us we’d sort this out. Then there was a PPPP Program meeting in May at M2’s house which I attended. P and I were still uncertain whether YYYY was in the PPPP Program, but P said he did not think so. Then I got an email from M on June 13, while I was on vacation, that said I was in the BBBB Program. I was told it had more to do with “funding requests” than anything else. So I kept working. And was never once contacted by K, supposedly my new boss. But that was okay, because M said the move would have zero to do with my day to day work, and that I would continue to work independently.
In the meantime, R2 was hired to run the SSPP b*a*llot in*i*tiative campaign. I was told by M before R2 was hired that the SSPP campaign was part of the YYYY Program. But then the hiring of the campaign manager went on without me. I was not given any choice or consideration. I LIKE R and have no problem with him. But as it had been previously stated that his position and the campaign were in the YYYY Program, and the YYYY Program was never officially removed or renamed, I had some expectations that the SSPP campaign was under my purview. Yet I was left out of the loop again and again.
On July 2, a PPPP Program call was scheduled. I emailed P and wrote that since I’d been moved to BBBB Program, I wouldn’t be on the call unless he thought I should be… he did not reply. Then a PPPP Program meeting was scheduled for San Francisco. YYYY was not included on the agenda. A couple days before the meeting, R asked me if I was going. I said no, because I was not in the PPPP Program. He asked me to put together my work project list. He said he was going to advocate for me, that YYYY was an important program. At least that’s what I thought he said. Right after the PPPP Program meeting, however, R called and said “you’re definitely in the PPPP Program.” I was surprised and a little upset as I’d assumed he would be advocating for the retention of the YYYY Program. And I guess I’d hoped that I might finally get some support.
Instead, I feel like a football that’s been kicked around that nobody has wanted to pick up. Nobody is fighting for the YYYY Program. Indeed, there is, apparently, no YYYY Program and, instead, just a couple YYYY campaigns. And I’m not clear whether or not I am a generic C*o*nservation Adv*o*cate working on various c*o*nservation activities no longer focused on “r*i*vers” or if I’m a R*i*vers C*o*nservation Adv*o*cate.
Additionally, whether or not you are considering my title change and current situation a demotion, it will certainly be looked at in that way from outside as well as inside our organization. Changing me from a program director to a c*o*nservation adv*o*cate strips me of any authority, perceived or otherwise. And if I’d made assumptions that I had some authority which was never actually given me as the YYYY Program Director, it is due at least in part to a lack of communication from leadership.
If I am being demoted because I have not lived up to leaderships’ expectations, I think there needs to be some recognition that your expectations were never clearly identified for me, nor was I effectively supported in my efforts. And I will take responsibility for not forcing this issue, making more demands and making greater headway.
At this point, I would like to have my job description and job title made excruciatingly clear. (and then I go into some of my specific work responsibilities and accomplishments)
I know that I’m doing good work and believe that my contributions to the XXXX are valued, whether or not that’s been coming through in the past year’s program deliberations. I think we can work through this. But I need leadership to do a better job of communicating with me and advocating for me. And I’m certainly open to hearing what I can do differently to improve my work performance and my working relationships with all of you.
Thank you for your time, and I look forward to better clarifying my position and job title -
Still holding your breath? Or did you give up??
I'm now the R*i*vers C*o*nservation M*a*nager...
Grinder House
Damn. I was feeling all happy and loved after reading Tracey's blog, laughed at the brilliant wit that Mimi keys, and then got a gut punch catching up with LookyDaddy! Now, if you read LookyDaddy's more recent posts, you'll see that Kathryn and family are doing okay, but I just can't imagine how horrible that had to be for her parents!!
Besides the blog world up and downs, my real world has been up and down, too.
UP - I'm less than 20 lbs from my goal weight!
DOWN - I haven't run in over a week...
UP - My mom is coming to visit for a week, arriving this Saturday!
DOWN - My sister can't run the marathon in Seattle Thanksgiving, so I'm going to delay my trip until Christmas... and will delay my marathon run until January.
UP - I found more kiddos on Adopt Us Kids to inquire about!
DOWN - Haven't heard anything back from the caseworker for 3 of the sibling groups and the one I did hear back from already has a family they're working with.
UP - Had a staff retreat in the gorgeous Chiricahua mountains in southeastern Arizona - creeks and changing tree leaves and great people!
DOWN - Internal work communications suck and I became upset to the point of tears several times over the past week & weekend.
UP - Got brave and wrote my bosses about my unhappiness, mistreatment and misunderstandings hoping to clear the air and get some clarity!
DOWN - Was essentially told to suck it up...
UP - Turns out I wasn't demoted after all and the job title change is insignificant!
DOWN - so why was I so upset? BECAUSE NOBODY WOULD EXPLAIN IT TO ME
UP - My landlord is almost done remodeling the third bedroom!
DOWN - My landlord is NOT done remodeling the third bedroom, yet is charging me $70 more in rent each month to pay for the remodel and energy use of a third bedroom...
BUT, to keep it in perspective, I'm healthy, I'm certified to adopt and it should happen anytime, I still love my job, my puppy dog is doing great, my car runs, I have wonderful family and friends... And I send my love out to everyone who is having a bad day, a bad week, a bad year... Hugs!
Besides the blog world up and downs, my real world has been up and down, too.
UP - I'm less than 20 lbs from my goal weight!
DOWN - I haven't run in over a week...
UP - My mom is coming to visit for a week, arriving this Saturday!
DOWN - My sister can't run the marathon in Seattle Thanksgiving, so I'm going to delay my trip until Christmas... and will delay my marathon run until January.
UP - I found more kiddos on Adopt Us Kids to inquire about!
DOWN - Haven't heard anything back from the caseworker for 3 of the sibling groups and the one I did hear back from already has a family they're working with.
UP - Had a staff retreat in the gorgeous Chiricahua mountains in southeastern Arizona - creeks and changing tree leaves and great people!
DOWN - Internal work communications suck and I became upset to the point of tears several times over the past week & weekend.
UP - Got brave and wrote my bosses about my unhappiness, mistreatment and misunderstandings hoping to clear the air and get some clarity!
DOWN - Was essentially told to suck it up...
UP - Turns out I wasn't demoted after all and the job title change is insignificant!
DOWN - so why was I so upset? BECAUSE NOBODY WOULD EXPLAIN IT TO ME
UP - My landlord is almost done remodeling the third bedroom!
DOWN - My landlord is NOT done remodeling the third bedroom, yet is charging me $70 more in rent each month to pay for the remodel and energy use of a third bedroom...
BUT, to keep it in perspective, I'm healthy, I'm certified to adopt and it should happen anytime, I still love my job, my puppy dog is doing great, my car runs, I have wonderful family and friends... And I send my love out to everyone who is having a bad day, a bad week, a bad year... Hugs!
Friday, October 05, 2007
Oh, no... that's okay. Really...
It's with very pouty lip that I write that "my boys" will not be my boys. I finally got word today that their caseworker has already contacted the families they are considering, and seeing as she didn't contact me... Yeah. It's hard to give up the idea of them. But, some other kiddos are out there, just waitin' for us to connect.
I'm also pouty 'cuz a good friend is moving to North Carolina tomorrow. I saw her this evening for a bit. Fought back a tearful goodbye. Pooh...
I have to pick out a new job title. "Director" no longer fits... "but you know it's not a demotion or anything... just..." Yeah. I know. But how're the people I deal with on the outside going to know? Well, Mayor, I'm the coordinator errr, advocate... ummmm... manager... associate? No, not the director. There's no director. But, yeah, you still have to listen to me... please? Whatever.
It really wasn't a bad day. Just a bunch of pissy parts to it. I'm gonna go eat and rest up for my 18-mile run tomorrow... (I'm just hoping I make it 15 miles!)
I'm also pouty 'cuz a good friend is moving to North Carolina tomorrow. I saw her this evening for a bit. Fought back a tearful goodbye. Pooh...
I have to pick out a new job title. "Director" no longer fits... "but you know it's not a demotion or anything... just..." Yeah. I know. But how're the people I deal with on the outside going to know? Well, Mayor, I'm the coordinator errr, advocate... ummmm... manager... associate? No, not the director. There's no director. But, yeah, you still have to listen to me... please? Whatever.
It really wasn't a bad day. Just a bunch of pissy parts to it. I'm gonna go eat and rest up for my 18-mile run tomorrow... (I'm just hoping I make it 15 miles!)
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