Saturday, March 14, 2009

Okay, now that that's over...

Yep. I stopped the adoption process. It was incredibly painful and one of the worst days of my life, but there really wasn't any other choice for me to make. I know it was the right decision to end it. Thanks for the good advice and wonderful thoughts and prayers. I did have to try to look very realistically at what life was going to be like with J, and it wasn't going to be good or pretty or happy.

I'll spare you all the gory details at this point... besides, I'm not feeling very talkative right now. I'm taking a little break to figure it all out.

11 comments:

battynurse said...

Oh Chelle, I'm so sorry. I know how much you had hoped for this and wanted it to work out. I'm so sorry it didn't. Thinking of you and sending hugs.

Anonymous said...

Don't beat yourself up over this. There are kids that can't be fixed no matter how much we love them or want to help them. That is one of the hardest lessons for people fostering or adopting kids in the system to learn. I have been following your blog for some time. I am a foster and adoptive mom in your area. I would love to talk to you. My email is azkids5 at yahoo.

ProfCJ said...

I've been checking periodically and wondering if the situation had gotten better. So sorry to hear that this isn't the case. Here's to healing and the "right" placement down the road.

Unknown said...

I am very sorry to hear about it, but I know you did the very best you can! That was a very difficult situation it sounded like. Stay strong.

Navigating The Rapids said...

Chelle I'm so sorry things didn't work out, but you had to do what was right for you, in no way does that make you a bad person.

The Mother Hen said...

I'm sorry about how this turned out. I was just in Phoenix and thought about trying to get together, but figured you had your hands full. As did I.

Jen said...

Just checking in on you Chelle. Let me know if you wanna meet up for some Matt's Big Breakfast someday or go have lunch or coffee, or whatever. I'm thinking you may still have my email address. You can email me or leave me a comment. Take care!

onemorebaby said...

Just to let you know that we are still thinking of you... : )

Anonymous said...

I'm just wondering if you're doing okay. You haven't written in your blog for some time.

Chelle said...

Thanks, Jewel, and all for thinking of me. I am still kidless and currently okay with that. I got laid off two months after ending the adoption process. Took me awhile to pick myself back up again, but have done it and am working on a nonprofit I've started. Don't know if or when I'll start thinking about kids again -- but certainly not until I feel somewhat financially stable again.

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